My computer is my access to the world!  ;-)  I appreciate that you asked & cared enough to read the bare aspects of my soul @ this time.  One step @ a time, I'm trying to get some life back.  I am waiting now to find out when I can have surgery to put a spinal cord stimulator in my back so I can get better pain relief & wean down off of the drugs that are also affecting my life.  Also, with having the house rebuilt, when we return to our 10+ acres in the woods, I hope to get some peace & piece of mind back.